the broken home

i dreamed a dream
where i'm home, everybody is happy
my mom gives me a hug
and she never tries to pick a fight with dad
we have dinner together everyday
wait for each other back from work and school patiently
laugh and share stories
there is a smile in everyone's face
and its not fake
no hate, no lies
only true love from the bonding of our blood

but it only a dream
when i wake up i see
my dad always yell to mom like usually
we never share stories
and we just people that happen to be related by blood
it never get better
since i was a kid until i getting older
same shit, different house
it always be a broken home where i felt like i'm not belong here
it is a home, it is a shelter
but it is not a place where we love each other
it feels with hate that never fade
through days and nights, year by year
we all still the same
happy ending is just a fairy tale....

how i respond to the finale episode of himym

Finally, one of my favorite series ended today. Lots of hatred on the finale of himym. I managed to read some of the tweets (even I did promise not to online Twitter for awhile) and I found one of the links that someone made as a tumblr post (and it was someone's fb status. what...)

There is a part that I agree with this guy and the rest of the parts, I don't. But before that, I love the ending. I reallly do. Most of tweets that I read said that it should be happy ending which means Barney and Robin, Ted and Tracy (finally the mother has a name!) and Marshall and Lily. Well, we can leave Marshall and Lily part because they're happy till the end of story. But kids, this is the truth about life. We can't always get happy ending and the writers of this series got that. And you guys should wake up from the fantasy and be realistic too. I had predicted a long time ago that the mother would die. This is the part that I agree with the guy that wrote fb status above. I was expected more sad part in the finale. I already prepared with a box of tissue, goddamnit. I thought that they will put more scene on Ted saying goodbye to his wife. But there was only like 2 minutes (or less) of that scene (which is not sad at all because it only shown Ted read a book to his wife). Well, that part was quite disappointing but the rest of it was great. I didn't expect Barney and Robin will get divorced. That's life anyway even in reality. Full with surprises. 

Another part that I disagree with that guy fb status is when he/she said that Barney character is sad and miserable. No, sir! You're totally wrong! Barney had finally met his true love in his life which is his daughter (Quick recap: He did try to find his true love from woman like Nora, Robin, Quin and he can't find it.He even had his heart broken before he became man in suit). FYI, not all people got true love in form of a woman/man/wife/husband. Some of us got it in form of kids/career/or others. Geez people, again be realistic! And seriously people that get mad with the writers for made the mother died. Here a news for you guys, people die everyday. Get over it! And Ted is not being an asshole to get back with Robin. He waited for 6 years after his wife died. That's showed how much Ted really love her. This is my opinion anyway. I don't care if you people hate it. I still proudly say that I love this series damn much. And for those that not get the message in this series, go learn literature!