When I was a little girl, I always dressed up like a boy. I like being a boy because being a girl is not fun. I hate makeup, skirts, dress, handbag and heels. But everything has changed when you hit your 30s. Everything that I hate become I love and everything that I used to hate like how emotional a woman can be, ironically now I becoming more like them. I used to think I'm different from other women because I watch football and play video games. But now, all these things cannot capture my interest anymore. Its not like I love makeup too much and play makeup all the time (in fact I still don't wear them), but I becoming more emotional than before. If this is what becoming a woman early 30s syndrome, then I hate it from the bottom of my heart. When you're younger, you wonder why older women are so emotional, easily get jealous with other women and always in a mess. Now that you have reached that level, everything is making sense and you are actually not unique or different because you are just like other women. You get jealous when your colleague got flowers from her husband, you always moody, messy and angry, and you cried all the time. The worst part in losing yourself is probably you don't know what can make you happy anymore which is sucks af. Literally. I wish I'll never grow up. (Sigh). Now, where is the way to neverland?
