It's almost the end of this year. How times flies without we even realize it. If i want re-cap on whatever happened in this year, in a short, this year has been roller coaster for me. It's not the worst year in my life (2011 is still on top) but it's not very good either. It's good for my career where i graduated with my phd this year and got my dream job in a good campus, but love life kinda disaster. I have to learn in a hard way to finally found my so called the one. I have dated 3 wrong guys this year and with a huge mistake gave a second chance to someone that doesnt deserve it. If i want to turn this heart break story around, i'm glad that i've made all these mistakes if this is what it takes to finally found him. With him, everything seems so simple even i've to go through difficult time. Although at the first time it just a big crush and the feelings slowly fading away since i declared it as a fling, now the feelings started to grow even more. I never thought i'm able to find someone like him, which is so kind and knows how to treat me right. No one ever treat me the way he treated me. It feels so right. He came at the right time and at right place where i was so vulnerable and full of heart break. He saves me, he came to me when i was at my worst. For the first time finally someone is there for me when i cried and hold me tight and told me that he will always be here for me. How you couldnt fall in love with someone like that? Even it is hard for me to make him fall in love with me, i'll try as hard as i can until finally i could hear he says to me that he loves me too. Until that day is coming, i'll not stop hoping with the hope next year will be better than this year. Looking back at this year, i think i can say that it's not really that bad since in the end of this year i found a beautiful closure. It has been rough year but totally worth the pain. Now i cant wait to live another year to see if i finally get a chance to write my happy ending :)
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