Hi blog! Can't believe it was 2 years since my last post. A lot of things had changes in 2 years. Im not a bitter woman writing on my blog about being alone anymore cause yeah, i got someone, my life companion...2 men in my life and of course one of them is still a cute little baby boy. Anyway, Im not here to write about them.
If is the word that many of us hate to hear. If I can turn back time, If I can fly, If this, If that...
But what I really wish now if I have some times to be alone with my sister, to hug her and to tell her how much I love her. I'm pretty sure she can't read this any more. At this very moment I'm writing this on my blog, she is struggling at the end of her life. It's really hard to see her in pain. All the pain that I wish I can take it away but I can't. I can't even blame God for making her suffer. I know God has the best plan for her. I know she can't stay longer any more. I don't even want her to stay longer anymore as I don't want to see her in pain anymore. I hope she can go anytime now as it will make her less suffer. At the same time I wish I can hold her hand longer, stay just me with her and tell her stories about our trips about all the gifts she gave me when I was young until I get older. I know she will be in Heaven cause she is a good sister, good daughter, good friend that can't be replace. I will miss her laughter, all the times we spend together playing UNO, saidina, scrablle, monopoly and how she loves when she winning all the game, I'm going to miss all this. On top I'm going to miss her. Although all this times when she is still healthy I wish I could spend more time with her, company her watching our favorite movies, travel more with her, tell her how much I love her. Its all too late now. All I wish is for her to go peacefully and less pain. :(
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