She’s staring at her laptop screen without realizing that it
has been past half an hour she had done that. She lost; her mind, her body and
her soul. Too many problems on her shoulder and she does not even know where
should her begin. It has been a month and a half since she had left him for
good. Now, she realizes that she is not just empty inside but full with pain
too. She had changed ever since that. She has lost her emotion, motivation and
even herself. It’s not because of him. It’s because something that she could
not discover the reason why she has become someone that she does not even know.
And now, she has to face another problem. The one that she hated the most: her
family problems. She has not done with her study and other problems that she
has yet. She could not take it. She is not that strong. That strong girl inside
her has lost ever since she met him.
Her family is something that she could not understand even
until she has been a grown up woman now. She has siblings that never share
stories or problems with each other, but only talks about each other behind
each other back. She wishes she could call an intervention one day and let
everyone in her family talk about what they don’t like with other family
members face to face and not behind anyone’s back. But deep inside, she knows
that would not be happening even in her dream. That’s why she used to be a
person that doesn’t know how to share her problems and her pains with others,
and still. She wonders if one day she will meet someone that will change this
thing and make her share every single problem and pain that she has. But for
now, she just can hope and wish. That’s the only thing that people can do at
least when they know nothing they could do anymore.
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