There must be someone or perhaps some people in your life that
think he/she better than anyone else. If no, maybe you're that person. Well, in
my case, I have two of those in my family and a few of them in my friends'
list. Seriously this type of person is fucking annoying. I'm literally
imagining that I can bitch slap him/her in my mind while he/she is talking.
Like he/she is the best and others just some shit. There was an incident last
week where I went out with this friend of mine and he managed to make me felt
down about my book and my study. Yes, I wrote a book and now I kinda regret sending
it to a publisher because I think it's just a piece of rubbish that someone
would regret buy it or probably the best joke ever on me. I do really feel bad
about the book since he talked to me like "why your book title sounds like a journal paper?" and I just smiled without saying any word. In my head I
was saying to myself "well that because it was a journal paper that turn
out to be a book because the publisher wants me to do so" But of course I
have no guts to tell him that because unlike him, I always think I'm not good
enough and my research is just another piece of shit too.
Why people do
this? Make themselves feel so good and look down to everyone else until they
lost their motivation. Maybe it is not their intention to make people down but
the way they said about themselves like they're better than anyone else and to
win an argument all the time do make people down. Like another case where my
sister and also a friend of mine that always love to correct
my pronunciation. It's good if they really want to correct it without making
you feel bad about yourself. But every time when I pronounced some words
wrongly, they sometimes said something mean and made me feel like they're are
saying shut the fuck up and just talk in your mother tongue language. Well, that's
another reason why our race is not getting better. I feel more comfortable
speaking in English with strangers especially tourist than speak with someone
that I know because people that we know do make fun when we do or say
something wrong instead of courage us to be better. Maybe it's a karma after
all because I did this to my students that's not very good in math even though
my intention was to motivate them. And the truth is not everyone can turn
a criticism to a motivation especially people that's easy to lose
motivation like me. Since I felt like karma hit me with a big car, I think I
would stop doing that to others. It's not cool, bro. If you think you're better
than everyone else, just think that there is always someone out there that is
better than you. The end.
