you are what you write

Today will be the last day I'll be a curator for twtupcampus account. It was fun, boring and exciting at the same times. Fun when I get the opportunity to know more people and not just students. I have made some friends there and we all have a few similarities too. Boring when you out of idea what to write or say in there. Exciting when you got too many reactions from different type of people. Speaking of writing, I may have written some stupid stuffs on my personal account this lately. I don't know why I lost myself again. I often do this, keep losing myself, losing faith and then someone's made me realize that I have to be me again. The question is I don't even know myself. Am I that type of person on the Twitter or I just someone else that I pretend to be on the Twitter? We all know that on the internet, we often miss identity and usually be a different person than we are in the real world. But somehow people still judging you by what you write on the internet like they already know everything about you and your story. So, no people. I am not what I write, including on this blog.   

I guess I just miss you, melbourne

Last month in the 'we're all the traveler' post, I promised to tell more about my trip in Australia. Sydney and Melbourne to be exact. But, what to tell except I have fallen for Melbourne. Oh, yes and my backpacking trip seems not so interesting because of my sister. Thank God that this will be my last trip with her (hope that she will not read this). Any who, since pictures speak a thousand words, I'm going to post some awesome shot that I had snapped in both cities. 

I will come back soon, Melbourne. Cross my heart, till I die. 

for an optimist, I’m pretty pessimistic

I don't know but somehow I can't forget about what had happened between me and him. I'm afraid to say that if I have fallen in love again. I just hate it when I am so easy to fall in love and yet too scared to admit it. Scared of losing him as my friend, scared of ruin this friendship and scared that maybe he does not feel the same way as I do. But I have to admit though that I am so happy every minutes I have spent with him. Even though he quite mean sometimes but he really knows how to make me smile. I just can't help being a woman, like wondering if this is the right thing to do. To keep this feeling growing inside me and it might kill me later. I wonder too if he likes me, probably our relationship will not end up well. Geez! Sometimes I just wish that I am a man. Don't have to wonder about all these stupid things. Maybe I should just enjoy every moment spent and ignore all this. 

we’re the travelers

Hey, blog! It feels like ages I haven’t updated anything in here. Lots of things had been happening this lately with the world issues that seem to never have any happy ending and currency issues that had occurred in Asia which I’d have to catch up since my research is related with it. Anyway, I’m not here to write about that. These past weeks, I had been travelling to three different places. It was fun, exhausted and stressed at the same time. The best thing about travelling besides we can see new place and learn about different cultures is we have an opportunity to meet new people. I have met lots of new people and most of them share the same interest with me which we love to travel. Last week I was in Bangkok and a week before that I had been to Sydney and Melbourne. Between these three cities, I must say that Melbourne was the only city that can make me like fall in love all over again. I love everything in there. The delicious food, the arts, the friendly people and the euro style environment. I would write all about these stories in another post. For now, I would like to share more about the people that I met along my way. 

Since I had stayed in backpackers' hostels in Sydney and Melbourne, I had the chance to mingle around people that stay there. There was not much of mingling around but I still manage to have a chat with one Canadian and some of people that mostly from Europe countries. Most of them travel and work at the same time. They have to work to make sure they have enough money to go to their next destination. Geez, how I wish I can live like that. So, basically it’s not too late to start anything in life. Since it’s too late to regret the decision that I had made by further my study in here, I might want to travel around Europe after I finish this whole shit. There… I said it. Oh, almost forgot about this one Makcik that I met at the Penang Airport last week before I took off to LCCT and then to Bangkok. That makcik was super awesome because she’s still travelling and works at the same time even though she’s probably too old for that. But since that makcik can do it, so why can’t I? Right? It was proofs that it’s never too late for anything evens you have your family (but not a career maybe). Well, one thing for sure, I will keep travel regardless how old I am without give a damn what people thought about me (if I’m not married) and I hope one day I can stay in Melbourne for good.    

I can't believe I still have time to write this [spoiler alert]

Last 16th August was the premiere of the Kick-Ass 2 movie which of course not in my country because here we can only watch it starting on the 29th of August (another week to go). Since I can't wait to watch it in the cinema, I already watched it online last 2 days. Here are my comments. After reading Hit-Girl and Kick-Ass comics for two nights in a row (yes, I watched the movie first then read the comics. So?), I found that Kick-Ass 1 is more interesting than the sequel. This is probably the same as the wolverine movie which everyone kept saying that the sequel was bored to death but my sister and I found that it was not that bad. It was okay after all and I still can't find which part bored them to death. Back to Kick-Ass 2, as being obviously stated on the poster, this movie not only based on Kick-Ass volume 2 comics, it is also based on Hit-Girl comics. (Kick-Ass 2: prequel Hit-Girl). So, similar to other superhero movies that based on comics or movies that based on novels, Kick-Ass 2 also not exactly 100% as same as their comics. After her dad's die, Mindy had to stay with Marcus (in comics, he has a wife) and she had promised him to stay away from Hit-Girl suit. Thus, there were not much of Hit-Girl actions (if you plan to watch this in the cinema just to watch Hit Girl's violence) and she's too busy fighting bitches in her school instead of fight criminals. The rest of the story was quite the same as the comics where Kick-Ass kept his ass busy finding other superheroes for team up and the climax of the story is when superheroes meet super-villains. Well, it is still a recommended to watch but not sure if it is worth your money if you want to spend it watch in the cinema.     

   

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It's still Syawal and we have been celebrated Eid ul-Fitr for almost 2 weeks. A month where most of us seek for forgiveness and forgive each other; which keep me wonder if we really mean by what we said "please forgive me", "sorry for everything that I've done" and "I forgive you". I've seen among my siblings that we said sorry to each other and then the next day, we hurt each other and talk bad behind each other again. It's like we just said sorry for the sake of tradition or trend and don't really mean it. Or on another side, we just wear a mask and forgive others while inside, we really hate that person and never forgive him/her with all of our heart. After all, we all wear masks and only show our real face sometimes. Put the mask on, fake the smile and say nice thing to each other. Is that what we have been doing every day? Some of us wear masks just to make others love them. The truth is not everyone prefers you to be yourself.

“We all wear masks, and the time comes when we cannot remove them without removing some of our own skin.” - Andre Berthiaume

hey, miss me?

It has been, yeah, quite a long time. So, for those following my blog updates, I'm sorry for not updating any entry this lately. I have been busy finishing my journal and now I have a book to write. I have a few entries to share but maybe I will post it later. For this time being, how about I keep you guys missing me like Annabelle.