Another exhausting weekend just over. Now, I can finally sit down
and start doing my work. Past three days I had been busy with my own schedule
like always be by her side on my best friend's wedding and had a night out with
another guy best friend for his own bachelor party. Well, it's not really a
party since it's only two of us. But that night, I had realized something which was I have been living in my fantasy world for quite a long time. I should know
that fantasy will never be as same as reality. I really hope someone should tell
me that though. Well, I started to realize that fact when his bachelor party turns
out not like what I had been fantasizing in my head. I really felt sorry for
him since I'm that lame girl that didn't know how to have fun. I thought I knew
since in my fantasy world, I'm that fun girl and really good with flirting. But
yeah, in the real world I just a numb girl with emotionless where in the club
that full with people dancing and flirting, while I just sat there and watched
others having fun. I always wonder how it was like going to clubs. That night,
he brought me to the place that I have never ever been in my life and thank God
I didn't like that place. It wasn't like some place that I have been fantasizing.
Well, for me it's sucks. Ever since that night, I started to see all the
reality and leave my fantasy world, slowly. The next day was my best friend's
wedding. Being by her side and watched all this wedding process made me felt
like I just woke up from a long sleep. It was like someone slapped me hardly on
my face and told me that I will never ever got what I had been fantasizing
including my own fantasy wedding. Nope, especially that! Geez, reality sucks! I
hate reality. Why I have to live in this world where we can't get what we want
in a way that we want it without care about others opinion or let others
interfere with our own fucking life. I don't want to leave my fantasy world
even I know I can't be the coolest girl like what I have been fantasizing
forever. And to face the fact that I will turn 27 next year. Seriously, life.
If this the lemon you give to me, I will be honored to throw it backs on your
face! (If only life has a face)
Nota kaki:
Carrie Ann, the other side of me who is live in a parallel universe. The coolest girl I have ever known. She's really good at playing video games and fucking talented in music. She plays guitar and keyboard. Her voice is just lovely. Outside, she is really feminine and she really knows how to dress to kill. Literally. She really loves to kill others especially bad people. Her favorite weapon is metal bat. She carries that stuff around in her backpack. (She hates designer handbag just like I do). Both of us have same interest but she is cooler and more talented than me. She is that girl who's know how to have fun. Sadly, she doesn't exist. IN REALITY.
Carrie Ann, the other side of me who is live in a parallel universe. The coolest girl I have ever known. She's really good at playing video games and fucking talented in music. She plays guitar and keyboard. Her voice is just lovely. Outside, she is really feminine and she really knows how to dress to kill. Literally. She really loves to kill others especially bad people. Her favorite weapon is metal bat. She carries that stuff around in her backpack. (She hates designer handbag just like I do). Both of us have same interest but she is cooler and more talented than me. She is that girl who's know how to have fun. Sadly, she doesn't exist. IN REALITY.
"Shit! I
should write a fiction novel."
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