sweet nightmare

Tonight I’m not sleeping. I choose to stay up finish my writing as much as I can. While everybody is on their way to the dreamland, I’m writing this entry and thinking. I keep dreaming these few days but with my eyes wide open while staring at the blank page of Microsoft word. In my dreams, I saw me having so much fun with my friends which I guess will never ever happening. (I blame Taylor Swift - 22 video for this!)  Some of them are busy with their life, while some of them probably still ignoring me for what I had said and done. It's our choice after all. To live our life with full of dreams or nightmare. I’m still not sure which one is mine. I want something like in my dreams but my behavior and my words put me in the nightmare. And I guess it is not sweet. Even literally. Just wondering… Have you ever wish that you can wake yourself from a long sleep and nightmare, then bring yourself to the life again?