So today I turn three cubed. Well, you do the math. It just another normal day for me but really Google please stop wishing me every time I open your home page. I hate birthday. Maybe because its a day that reminds me I'm getting old and it also a day that reminds me how alone I am even though I am at home this year and surrounded by my family members. I don't care if people don't celebrate or even wish. That's why I change my birthday on Facebook anyway. Although sometimes I do envy every time I saw some friends got their surprise party. I wish I have it once in my life but of course my best friends are busy with their life even I did have plan a surprise birthday party for one of my best friends. And sadly she didn't even bother to company me today. Yeah, whatever. It's still nothing compared to some people fate out there who don't even have anything to eat today. I should thankful for what I've today and still breathing on this beautiful earth. This life that I have, some people wanted to be me and some of my friends adore me. I don't know why they think I have everything. I may have PhD at the youngest age but who needs that when you are all alone. I never proud of myself. Maybe because of what I did in my past. There are so many mistakes and much regrets. And no matter you want to forget your past, you can't because you have to live with it. It made what type of person are you today. I become wiser yet I am full of revenge and still can't forget and forgive. I'm not happy with my life but I'm trying to find my happiness. I don't know how but for now I just live like a robot and finish everything that I've started. This life that I have go through until today have thought me everything. And I hope I can live long enough to finally find my happiness, make something meaningful and forgive myself for all stupid mistakes that I've done.
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