when life gives you lemons, make a wish

Do you have a wish? What you can do to make your wish come true? By making a wish before you blow some candles on your birthday cake? Throw a coin into the Trevi Fountain? Or just pretend an air plane in the night sky like a shooting star? We all have our own wishes that we hope something can make it true. That’s why people create ‘Genie in the bottle’ in their imagination world. Speaking of wish, I do have some right now. But my one wish that I hope can be granted is our country to be safe and this war will be ending soon. Even it is not happening in our state or place that we are staying right now, we should still worry since we are under one nation. Let’s wish with me but don’t just wish, recite prayers too. So that with all of our doa, our country will be at peace again.

_{Soalan suka kaki:}

If Dragon Ball really exists and only one can make a wish before the dragon fades forever (which happened to be you), do you think that you would trade world peace with stay young forever or lots of money in the eight-storey bungalow? 

Letter to Mother

Mom,

I’m sorry for what I have done behind your back, and also for all the lies that I had told. I’m sorry if I ever hurt your feelings, which I know I did, a lot. I try to be a good daughter, but I’m always not good enough. Some people said that life does not come with a manual on how to be a good person and a good daughter, but that is not true. We can always learn from the holy Al - Quran and our life experiences. I learned day by day, mother, but still I wish I can do better. I wish I can put a smile on your face every time I back home and take all your pain away.  I wish I can buy everything that you want and give you money so that you don’t have to argue about money with dad.

You must not know mom, that every time when I back home, I wish I can hug you and tell you how much I miss you. I wish you can call me more often when I far away from home, so that I don’t assume you have forgotten about your daughter here. I wish I can share all my stories and problems with you. I wish I can cry on your lap and hear you say “Ssshhh..don’t cry.Everything going to be okay.” Don’t worry, mom. I know how much you love me even you never say it back to me. Do you know mom, I have spent every single time in my life wishing that we could be more than what we are now? Honestly, I get envy sometimes when I watch my friend or some people that really close with their mother. And then I keep telling myself “I want that”. I know I shouldn’t say that because I still have you. I should appreciate you even we’re different from others. Like my cousin said to me “Make your mom happy while you still can. Give her everything that you have (love and money) because this is your only chance. I don’t get that chance. My mom went too early. I can’t even afford to buy my own clothes that time. I was too young.”

I can’t imagine my life without you. You meant a world to me. That’s why I willing to let go a guy that I love so much because of you. I know you want the best for me, you want me to be happy. But nothing makes me happier than watch you happy, mom. I’m still not ready to have a life without you in it. I pray every day and night so that God won’t take you away from me. I just love you too much, even words can’t describe it. 

p/s: Remember when I want to go back to Penang and you’re asking me what I want to take away for lunch? Even cooking some meals is not a problem for you and it looks like a small thing, but watching you cook early in the morning just for me, it always makes me want to cry. Thank you so much, mom. 

It’s a bird it’s a plane!

We live in the real world where a guy named Clark Kent can transform into a flying man in a phone booth does not exist. Even so, that does not mean superheroes aren’t real. Yesterday, two police commandos were killed and they’re superheroes in the eyes of people in our country. Maybe they did not have superpower but they did make us realize that we need to be united when our country is in crisis.

It is not necessary to go to a war or join an army to be a superhero. You can be a superhero to yourself by doing something good  and save yourself from doing a bad thing. On top, you can always be a superhero to someone else by doing even a small thing to people like helping elders cross the road, donate some money or goods to the homeless or charity, and the list goes and on and on. There are too many things that you can do instead of push sharing and retweets in social networks (plus win an internet argument, which you do know that things such a waste of time). Go out and start living your life by being a superhero to someone. We’re not living just for ourselves and please don’t be such a selfish bitch. Oh hey, just to share here, I have submitted my volunteer form today. So, maybe you can do the same too? There are plenty of places that need a volunteer like SPCA, makna, UN, and much more (please do Google or check Red.fm/mix/hitz, they’re always posting about places need help there). Remember that we can’t change the world. The world will always be unfair and such a cold place. But we can start by changing someone else’s life. *smile*

3 out of 12

And it’s 1^st of March today!!! I wish it is still February. Damn! I still didn’t enjoy my January. Why are times has to be so fast? There are not much time left for me if I want to grad on time (Why am I still writing this blog again?). Ok. Now, time to sit down and think what you’ve done for the last two months this 2013? In my case, I haven’t done anything much (instead of wasting time on Twitter). Oh, how I wish today is 1^st of February…. *sigh*

Honest policy.

How many of us return back change when a cashier miscalculates our balance? I can’t see even you raise your hand. But thanks for being honest. Not many of us can be honest. Yesterday, I wanted to withdraw some cash and because there were some problems with the stupid ATM machine, I left angrily since I thought my money will never come out. After a few steps from that machine, two guys that queue behind me shouted “Miss, Miss, your money!” I was quite embarrassed that time but most of all I feel so touched by their honesty. These kind of people still exist in this world.

Honesty is an important variable in constructing a relationship equation with your love one, family, friends and everyone around you. If you can’t be honest, it is hard for people to develop a trust in you. As we read in the daily quotes on Twitter or Tumblr, trust is like an eraser, it gets smaller and smaller after every mistake. And when too much lies are being told, no one going to trust you anymore even you’re telling a truth. Just like the shepherd’s boy and the wolf story. That is how much valuable honesty compared to Louis Vutton handbag. No, I’m kidding. It is invaluable. So, let’s start being honest with each other because it is a good thing and you have nothing to lose. Instead, everyone will loves you and respect you for your honesty.   

best friends forever

There she was my best friend, sitting in her room typing her research chapters. She is still my best friend and I don’t know if she knew how much I miss talking, chatting, gossiping, laughing and crying with her. We used to do all these things. But as usual, times change everything. That’s another reason why I hate getting older and growing up. It’s not just ruins fun paragraphs in your chapters, it also ruins your friendship. As you getting older, you watch your best friend getting engaged, married and build a family. Then, they will get busy with their own life, their own world. Words and pinky promise that only your best friend and you know are being forgotten.

Forever does not exist but that doesn’t mean  you have to forget your best friend way too fast, not even until half of your life chapters. And leave everything what both of you used to have behind. It's just sad to watch she leaves without saying what you’ve done wrong and a goodbye. She said nothing is wrong but for a woman, nothing means something. (I know because I’m a woman too). Why this thing happens? Why we can’t be like Serena Van Der Woodsen and Blair Waldorf or Caroline Channing and Max Black? Maybe because we live in the real world and not in the drama series where their life is written by a script writer. I just wish I can have my best friend back. Even she can’t be with me every time every day, well at least I hope I can hear she said that she misses me too and love me as much as I do and really meant every single word that she said. 

SMILE! (even you are not in the candid camera)

A smile is like a disease (But a good one). When someone smile to others, it will make her/his day. It’s also an answer to a problem when someone being rude to you. It will automatically make the person feels ashamed for her/himselves. I’m not usually smiling to others and I don’t smile when taking pictures. Some people labeled me as a weirdo. But hey, that’s me! Yet, when someone smiles to me, I will always make sure I smile to that person back even my day isn’t so good. It's called common courtesy and she/he has made my day, so why I should not do the same as what he/she did to me, right? So, next time if you see someone smiles at you even that person is a stranger or you’ve a bad day, don’t forget to reply it back. You will never know how much the price of your smile to others.