just because I have XX chromosomes

It is not easy to be a human called woman. I don’t say it is easy to be a man either. But if you were born with XY chromosomes, at least you don’t have to be worried a chance you might bury alive or called bearer of bad luck in some culture, experience the nightmare of period pain every month and endless pain of giving birth. Yes, men have lots of responsibilities. However in this modern age, some of their responsibilities are shared with us, women. Women nowadays are more independent, smart and have their own career. We are so much luckier compared to women in the 1960s. Back to my mom’s year when she was a teenager and got an offer to further her study, my grandma didn’t give permission to her since most of the people think a women’s place should be in the kithchen. Well, most of us today are in front of a computer at the office instead in the kitchen.

Even so, there are still some issues for example in our culture, when it comes to rape or sexual harassment, some people still condemning women’s clothing as the reason this thing happened. Meanwhile in the western culture, it is okay if men sleep with many women but when women do the same, they will labeled as a slut. I’m trying not to sound so sexist while writing this entry and of course I’m not demanding for gender equality here. Just for men out there, it is very much appreciated if you can give us, women some respect. That’s all we need instead of love and a little bit attention. For women, please try to stand up for yourself (seriously, I hate to see women that are too dependent/needy) and love yourself since we’re all beautiful. Hey! We have our international day which men don’t have. Yup! We’re special after all. J

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Admit it. It is always easier to run away from people that you don’t like and problems that you have than face it. I’ll admit, I do it too sometimes. Oh well, what the hell! Everyone does. So the question here is why are we too afraid to face the truth or to tell someone that “we can’t be more than friend” or just being honest and tell them the truth? Someone told me that running away is probably the best way since you can drag the time and as the time pass by, the person that you are avoiding might forget about the unresolved issue. We all know that things never work that way. It is not easier for that person to just forget about the issue especially when that person is a woman; unless she doesn’t care about it.

So, if you can solve the issue in the first place, why bother to run? Is it because we afraid that the person might get hurts? What's the difference anyway? If you keep the person in the dark for too long, trust me, it hurts more than knowing the truth. That’s why I prefer to face my problems by telling the truth to someone. Okay, maybe the risk here you might lose her/him. (That's explained why I keep losing my friends and some people that I know around me). Some people give another name for a person that like to run away from his/her problems which is a coward. But how about the other person that is the victim of the issue? If that person let he/she ran away for too long, is it means that person is just as same as her/him? It isn’t wrong to run away sometimes but somehow you know that you can’t run away forever. At some point, you have to stop because you will get tired of running. So, maybe it is better for all of us to stop running, avoiding and ignoring the problems or some people, and just be a man and face it. 

W T F

Hey, it's Wednesday again! Yup. I’m happy because it is Wednesday. Wednesday is my favorite day of the week (for now) because I can watch my favorite drama series, Revenge at night and of course, we can watch movie in cinema with the cheaper price compare to other days. For those who are working, Wednesday means you have another two days to the weekend. (Okay, I’m being captain obvious here). Anyway, nothing much to write today. But really though… it seems times flies really fast now. I felt like just yesterday I wrote a post about best friends and it was last week. Last two days, I talked to my friend about this and she felt the same too. Its like the end of the world is near. Agree?

when life gives you lemons, make a wish

Do you have a wish? What you can do to make your wish come true? By making a wish before you blow some candles on your birthday cake? Throw a coin into the Trevi Fountain? Or just pretend an air plane in the night sky like a shooting star? We all have our own wishes that we hope something can make it true. That’s why people create ‘Genie in the bottle’ in their imagination world. Speaking of wish, I do have some right now. But my one wish that I hope can be granted is our country to be safe and this war will be ending soon. Even it is not happening in our state or place that we are staying right now, we should still worry since we are under one nation. Let’s wish with me but don’t just wish, recite prayers too. So that with all of our doa, our country will be at peace again.

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If Dragon Ball really exists and only one can make a wish before the dragon fades forever (which happened to be you), do you think that you would trade world peace with stay young forever or lots of money in the eight-storey bungalow? 

Letter to Mother

Mom,

I’m sorry for what I have done behind your back, and also for all the lies that I had told. I’m sorry if I ever hurt your feelings, which I know I did, a lot. I try to be a good daughter, but I’m always not good enough. Some people said that life does not come with a manual on how to be a good person and a good daughter, but that is not true. We can always learn from the holy Al - Quran and our life experiences. I learned day by day, mother, but still I wish I can do better. I wish I can put a smile on your face every time I back home and take all your pain away.  I wish I can buy everything that you want and give you money so that you don’t have to argue about money with dad.

You must not know mom, that every time when I back home, I wish I can hug you and tell you how much I miss you. I wish you can call me more often when I far away from home, so that I don’t assume you have forgotten about your daughter here. I wish I can share all my stories and problems with you. I wish I can cry on your lap and hear you say “Ssshhh..don’t cry.Everything going to be okay.” Don’t worry, mom. I know how much you love me even you never say it back to me. Do you know mom, I have spent every single time in my life wishing that we could be more than what we are now? Honestly, I get envy sometimes when I watch my friend or some people that really close with their mother. And then I keep telling myself “I want that”. I know I shouldn’t say that because I still have you. I should appreciate you even we’re different from others. Like my cousin said to me “Make your mom happy while you still can. Give her everything that you have (love and money) because this is your only chance. I don’t get that chance. My mom went too early. I can’t even afford to buy my own clothes that time. I was too young.”

I can’t imagine my life without you. You meant a world to me. That’s why I willing to let go a guy that I love so much because of you. I know you want the best for me, you want me to be happy. But nothing makes me happier than watch you happy, mom. I’m still not ready to have a life without you in it. I pray every day and night so that God won’t take you away from me. I just love you too much, even words can’t describe it. 

p/s: Remember when I want to go back to Penang and you’re asking me what I want to take away for lunch? Even cooking some meals is not a problem for you and it looks like a small thing, but watching you cook early in the morning just for me, it always makes me want to cry. Thank you so much, mom. 

It’s a bird it’s a plane!

We live in the real world where a guy named Clark Kent can transform into a flying man in a phone booth does not exist. Even so, that does not mean superheroes aren’t real. Yesterday, two police commandos were killed and they’re superheroes in the eyes of people in our country. Maybe they did not have superpower but they did make us realize that we need to be united when our country is in crisis.

It is not necessary to go to a war or join an army to be a superhero. You can be a superhero to yourself by doing something good  and save yourself from doing a bad thing. On top, you can always be a superhero to someone else by doing even a small thing to people like helping elders cross the road, donate some money or goods to the homeless or charity, and the list goes and on and on. There are too many things that you can do instead of push sharing and retweets in social networks (plus win an internet argument, which you do know that things such a waste of time). Go out and start living your life by being a superhero to someone. We’re not living just for ourselves and please don’t be such a selfish bitch. Oh hey, just to share here, I have submitted my volunteer form today. So, maybe you can do the same too? There are plenty of places that need a volunteer like SPCA, makna, UN, and much more (please do Google or check Red.fm/mix/hitz, they’re always posting about places need help there). Remember that we can’t change the world. The world will always be unfair and such a cold place. But we can start by changing someone else’s life. *smile*

3 out of 12

And it’s 1^st of March today!!! I wish it is still February. Damn! I still didn’t enjoy my January. Why are times has to be so fast? There are not much time left for me if I want to grad on time (Why am I still writing this blog again?). Ok. Now, time to sit down and think what you’ve done for the last two months this 2013? In my case, I haven’t done anything much (instead of wasting time on Twitter). Oh, how I wish today is 1^st of February…. *sigh*